Just Not Sure

I'm not sure I know where to begin....as far as anything internet-wise, I have been a ghost. It wasn't planned, it just happened. I do have a few theories as to why I haven't been writing. 


I was all set, ready to move on and open things up. My last post was the beginning of the room change...reorganizing and reducing the clutter. The only thing it cost me was time....I made do with whatever was at hand. I started the post on the finished work, but it's in draft....I'll finish it soon.


I have really been stressed out lately. There I was, traveling along my journey full of gusto, thoughts and ideas when out of the sky comes...stuff. All kinds of stuff.....work, home, finance and more stuff. I retreated and climbed into a shell of sorts. The sorts being my writing was the only thing other than my emotional state that suffered.


I tried several times to get a post out but couldn't finish any of them, frustrating me even more. So I concentrated my energy toward getting other things done like the room, laundry, the beach and a lot of thinking.


I realized that I have been trying to do too much with the little time I have to myself these days. I think that is why I withdrew from writing. Just when I felt good about things and the future looking bright, it seemed no matter where I turned, something was in the way. It was becoming unbearable. 


My pen and my keys grew all the more silent. The strange thing is that I missed writing immensely, but it was easy to stay away even in my state of frustration. I guess I'm thinking I would make things worse for myself by fueling the fire.   


I have directed most of my frustration inward which created some anxiety filled with self doubt. I started questioning myself and surprised at some of the answers. Thus the reason to scale back. The WhatrUWorkinOn meme is still a go....I'm really looking forward to that. 


Poetry and short stories are still in with one exception...I will not be linking. I have a lot of ideas with what I want to do with poetry and shorts. For starters, I have been thinking of combining a poem I wrote and tying it in with a series of shorts and poems. I've already penned a starter for the story, but I misplaced my notebook during the room change....one of those somethings that fell from the sky.  



The past couple of days have been a little better for me and I want to get back to writing again. I just need to do some serious time management in that category.