I'm driving myself crazy trying to stay consistent, or to even come close to resembling someone who means what he says. At times I feel as if I have given up...but I'm not a quitter.
I want to bury my head in the sand to avoid whatever it is that hangs over me. I want to soak up the sunshine and walk in cool grass as the blades slice between my toes.
I want to take my fists and pound them into a wall until it begins to crumble before me or until my hands are bloodied or broken. I want to hear the sound of the sea's waves washing onto the beach or splashing against the rocks.
This is such a sad state to be in...I'm tired of it and I'm sure you are not enjoying this yourself....what to do...what to do.
I guess I'll have to keep plugging away and striving forward...I mean, this can't last much longer...could it?
Anybody out there want to do a trade off? Just kidding....I wouldn't wish this on anyone.
It's not ALL bad. I do have continued chances to turn this around....I wake up everyday and I'm thankful for that.
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